I had no idea what I was getting into before I got married. I mean, how can you really anticipate what will happen for the rest of your life when you make such a decision? It seems like one day I was just Kilee, a girl who liked playing basketball, painting, going on dates, and having fun with friends. Then, the next day I was married to the guy with whom I was supposed to start this grand new adventure—with whom I should be happy with for the rest of my existence.
Many soon-to-be-weds think marriage ensures blissful butterflies and rainbows. Maybe that’s an exaggeration, but we definitely don’t anticipate life after marriage to be as hard as it really is. There are many reasons for that, one being the fact that you are now part of a team and you have to learn to work together. With a team, things are easier, right?
We’ve definitely had our fair share of trials since we were married. We’ve specifically faced dreadful trials between us, putting a wall in our marriage.
One day I woke up and realized I did not love my husband. He was just a stranger sleeping next to me. In that moment, I questioned everything I was and everything I had done up to that point in my life. This realization that I could not “be in love” with the guy to whom I had promised my eternity changed my view of marriage. Forever.
Some people call that “falling out of love.” I don’t know what to call it. Falling out of love seems too sudden, almost like BAM! — I don’t love you anymore. It didn’t happen like that. This “fall” of our love happened ever so gradually until it hit full reality that morning. It happened over the course of painful trials. It happened as lies were discovered in our marriage. It happened as choices were made that tore us apart. It happened as our communication and emotional intimacy declined.
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